23 April 2008
Click on the link below:
'Heavy losses' in S Lanka clashes
Tamil report on the conflict in Sri Lanka
14 April 2008
12 December 2007
Serene Sneha11 December 2007
09 December 2007
06 December 2007
Unforgettable women Iniyan could never meet:
There is no picture of Thillaiyaadi Valliammai in the internet which is a shame. But during the short period she lived, which was barely 17 years, she lived a life of a young activist who fought and died for the cause of the human rights of her people. She was a friend and disciple of Gandhi, and was a daughter of a Tamil merchant, R. Munusamy Mudaliar who had settled in South Africa. Valliammai was born in South Africa and died there. Her death was caused by the illness she suffered as a result of imprisonment under the apartheid regime.
28 November 2007

25 November 2007

Corrected Version 2
I recently came across a news clip while casual web surfing which stated that during the shooting of a scene for the film "Pudu Pettai" Sneha was actually and really kicked in the abdomen by an actor (Bala Singh) at the behest of director Selva Raghavan's quest for "reality" and she had to take a break from the shoot because of the acute and unbearable pain she suffered as a result! This was from a news clipping from "Dina Thanthi" news paper dated 22/03/2006. Since this news clipping is in Sneha's approved and official fan website I am sure that this is true. I don't understand how a director could have allowed such physical abuse of an artist in the name of "reality" and this is nothing but physical abuse. As a person who wishes well and sincerely cares for her, I have to say that Sneha should not allow directors and actors to take her for granted and subject her to such physical trauma. She should assertively stand her ground and refuse to suffer physically in the name of "reality" and even walk out from shoots and demand financial compensation if she is subjected to such ill treatment! (The director would not have saved her life if she had suffered internal bleeding like the way Amithab Bachan suffered after he received a punch in the abdomen during the shoot of the film "Coolie" that almost cost his life!!) I am surprised that Sneha continued to act in the scene without protest after being really being kicked in the abdomen in the aforesaid scene. She should have protested and walked out, checked herself medically and demanded financial compensation! When another actress from Kerala recently got a director from Tamil Nadu banned for a year for slapping her, one wonders why Sneha suffered being violently kicked in the abdomen "really" for the sake of "reality" to the extent of suffering extreme pain and risk internal bleeding (that could have caused death) without protest!! She should have shown more self respect and atleast complained! I am sure the concerned villain actor and the director would not have subjected a male lead actor to such abusive trauma as they took Sneha's pain and anguish for granted! I was quite pained to read this report, even though it occurred a year ago! And I am sure the director and the actor should take full responsibility for the physical abuse and pain caused to Sneha.
23 November 2007
22 November 2007

21 November 2007


I request "Thalaivar" to adopt me as his intellectual and ideological son and also do his father's duty by asking for Sneha's hand in marital partnership to his son (which is me!!) But I thought we already have a "telepathic" Pisirandhiyaar and Kopperuncholan relationship - albeit of a father son variety of two individuals who loved and admired each other!



20 November 2007
19 November 2007


This is because Sneha has said in an interview that she will marry only in 2009 or 2010 and that she will only marry some one her parents approve of (and I will be older by two years by then but younger at heart by ten years)! Given this, I have been wasting my time trying to woo Sneha through this blog, instead I should impress her parents! (If any readers of this blog know her parents try to put a good word (but not a bad word) on my behalf!!) I think I should return to India and establish my projects in pioneering aspects of psychological medicine, counselling and human rights law, in which I have trained in the UK, or simply convince Sneha's parents that I am a decent human being. But I have my feet quite planted on the ground and I am under no illusions that Sneha or her parents will like me, and probably Sneha will unleash her pet dogs on me(!), but atleast I am happy that I expressed my adoration and affection for her, truly!



Photos: A still from her latest Punjabi film "Ek Jind, Ek Jaan" (top), Nagma seen with Delhi chief minister Sheila Dixit from an image of a function dating to 2005 (bottom) and a dated image of her distributing blankets to the poor of New Delhi on the human rights day of 2004 (middle)
18 November 2007
17 November 2007
Iniyan's favourite musical moments visually and musically:
"En Enakku Nadukkam, En Enakku Mayakkam" from the Tamil film "Naan Avanillai" with a petite and gorgeous Sneha choreographed to tender and romantic dance moves with the lead male Tamil actor Jeevan:
16 November 2007
"En Enakku Nadukkam, En Enakku Mayakkam" from the Tamil film "Naan Avanillai" with a petite and gorgeous Sneha choreographed to tender and romantic dance moves with the lead male Tamil actor Jeevan:
15 November 2007


Corrected Version 2
I am concerned that my writings on Sneha should not affect her career and media image:
I was relieved to see an image of Sneha in the most recent edition of “Kumudam" and also in Dinakaran”. This was because I was (and am) very concerned that my writings on Sneha should not affect her career or media standing and success in her chosen profession. Hence I will be writing less on her. I request the media and film professionals not to view Sneha with prejudice based on my writings and expressions of adoration and affection. I would be the last person to see her career or media image to be affected by my writings on her because I adore her as a performer and I want her to scale new heights, different facets, challenging characters, more glamorous roles and higher success critically, creatively and financially.
Let me make it very clear that I have not interacted with her even by email and I have never spoken to her, and never met her but I will (and fervently hope to) one day, given my love and affection for her. But I request friends and professionals in the media and films not to use my writings as a reason to affect her career or media image negatively. She is first and foremost a great performer, a beautiful person and an attractive media celebrity, and I would be very sad if my expressions of love and affection are seen as a reason to affect her forays in media and film, given the notoriety I enjoy in the perception of some quarters.
I have been forced to write this because I got the feeling that the media is marginalising her!!!Cases in point are two instances from Kumudam magazine. In the issue of "Kumudam" dated 12.09.2007, to a question on who is the most beautiful actress in Tamil cinema “Arasu” had excluded all the names of every actress working in the field currently by mentioning each of their names except Sneha’s to imply the latter as the answer, but the image of the answer did not contain Sneha’s image but of a different performer. A direct answer pointing to Sneha would have gladdened the hearts of many, particularly mine!! It was obvious that “Arasu” wanted to give the answer “Sneha” but wanted the readers to guess the latter answer and hence was beating around the bush for the sake of humour, but the fact that the answer was not accompanied by Sneha’s image but of another performer would have led the readers miss the point!!! Similarly in another recent issue of Kumudam there was a cheeky but hilariously entertaining report on a “survey” on “actresses with the most beautiful “figure” (as pertaining to the waistline as a measure of attraction), in which Sneha was ranked “third”, but again the report did not contain her picture!!!!
I am very concerned that Sneha should not be denied her career growth, glamorous media reports and colourful image just because I write lovingly and adoringly of her when I have not even interacted or met with her.
Hence please don’t view my writings on Sneha with prejudice or with negative implications for her professional or media image. Please. I will try to reduce my writings on Sneha and instead focus on my plans to meet her instead, which is easier said than done, and I hope to make the film as I promised in an earlier blog, but I think the deadline for completing the film may be prolonged.
As they say, old habits die hard particularly those that pertain to the heart, and I may post another poem on Sneha or an excerpt from my screenplay “Finding Sneha”.
But let me hasten to add and emphasize that Sneha is in a different league and is incomparable to anyone else, and is the most attractive woman, thoughtful person and intelligent performance artist I have known lest I cause offence to her by my positive remarks on Deepika Padukone or other women in previous blogs!

I recently saw Farah Khan's "Om Shanthi Om" and enjoyed it. It was a fine example of the traditional musical melodramatic genre of Indian films! No wonder that it is a huge success! The choreography (supposedly by Farah herself - in parts) and the cinematography by a guy with a Tamil sounding name "Mani Kandan" stands out. (He actually happens to be a guy who shot many Tamil films and he has recently moved to shooting Hindi films)! Those in India who feted the Hollywood musical "Moulin Rouge" forget that the Indian film industry churns out hundreds of much better made musical films with more high voltage drama, spell binding music, classically fine tuned Indian songs and mind numbing choreography - all with melodramatic sentiment than any "Moulin Rouge" could manage!
Shah Rukh overacts as usual, but his acting has become so predictably but enjoyably and entertainingly contrived in the traditional Hindi heroic style (like the speech he gives to slum dwellers which is replicated at the film awards function by the "born again" character later), that one can actually see it as a parody of the cliched image of the Indian box-office male star, but an enjoyable and entertaining one at that ! I am not being sarcastic here and let me hasten to add that Shah Rukh is actually a good and thoughtful actor and is capable of more natural performances when challenged, but he is too much of a commercial "Badshah" to get a director who may challenge him to get out of his over-acting, which I should admit, suits his commercial box office status! In actuality, he should be acting the way he does to suit his box office image and people seem to actually like his over-acting style, and I don't blame him! (It may be relevant to cite at this point the other great actor who made natural under-acting as a saleable commodity at the box office which was a more difficult challenge given the time when he entered films, namely Amithab Bachan!)
Of course, I have to mention Deepika Padukone who is absolutely and unbelievably photogenic, and is turned into a screen Goddess by Farah Khan and Mani Kandan, with some explicit visuals, dance moves and fantastic costumes! Deepika has a great screen presence and she will undoubtedly become a huge commercial star given her graceful dancing and quite impressive emoting skills and may I dare to add, a very attractive personality - figuratively speaking!
07 November 2007
02 November 2007
26 October 2007
17 October 2007
14 October 2007
12 October 2007

Eyes of Life.
A poem on Sneha.
By Iniyan.
Deep welled spring,
With a depth,
That is un-ending,
Which strikes deep
And digs into the ground of my mind, and
Flushes out the water
Of my being,
Of my life,
For others to drink,
And for me to look at
My own watery reflection,
Of my life,
In the springs of my own mind,
As my deepest and unseen persona,
My most unearthed expression,
My unrealised creative self,
And my forgotten humanity,
And my sheathed talents
That never came out to strike –
The enemies of humanity
In the human fold,
And my rusted tenderness,
Of loving a woman,
To see me,
To know me,
To remind me,
Of myself that I forgot,
And repressed,
In the sands of the struggle,
Of what life is.
Those deep springed wells,
With its depth of unspoken thought,
Unwritten Meaning,
Mega-powered Femininity,
That seethes in those small pairs
Of pearly eyes,
Just as the power sheathed
In a small nucleus,
That swells,
Swells and Widens,
Like an expanding horizon of an unending sky,
That carries clouds of rain
That showers me wet,
With moisture sparkling of life,
With chillness,
That creeps,
Creeps into my heart,
And hides in a corner,
And knocks on the door of my mind,
To open up,
And see this new horizon,
And to feel the breath of a new fresh air
Of life,
And to see myself,
That I forgot,
So,
Others can see me,
The real me,
And feel the chillness
Of life,
Sneha,
Your eyes,
Those deep springed wells,
Gives me life.
Brings out the human,
Being in me.
Blessed is the man,
Who drinks from it.
Will I drink from it –
To give me life?
11 October 2007

08 October 2007



04 October 2007
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30 September 2007


28 September 2007


26 September 2007
25 September 2007
My request to Sneha (and also to others and all): Please dont get scared by my previous political writings in this blog or in my other blog indianhumanrights.blogspot.com. I am actually a very soft spoken, tender, artistic, creative, vulnerable, and romanticist man, and please don't judge me without meeting or knowing me based on my political writings. That is why I removed all political writings from this blog, except those relevant to the media. My forays into political issues and human rights activism was based on my interest to ensure that my fellow human beings and citizens are not hurt or violated for no fault of theirs, which is an extension of my duties as a doctor, because health encompasses social health along with physical health and mental health. I am what one may call an accidental activist (if one may wish even an accidental social revolutionary).




21 September 2007
20 September 2007


Silver was (and is) one of my favourite actors. But let me hasten to add that I have major disagreements with his politics, since Silver is also a politically active man in the Zionist cause. But my disagreements with certain tenets of his politics does not take away my respect and awe for his awesome screen presence, scorching dynamism on screen and incredible capacity to get into the skin of his character. It always beat me why he did not become a major Hollywood megastar like Tom Cruise or Bruce Willis. May be he is one of those big-wigs behind the screen and not in front of it. But it is a shame that he didn't choose to become a major international Hollywood star in the likes of Cruise, Ford, etc.

19 September 2007

17 September 2007
16 September 2007

15 September 2007
Corrected Version 1
Sanathanist bigots' agenda in the visual arts:
If an Indian Dravidian person (derided as a Shudra or a Panchama by the Sanathanists) finds talent or ingenuity in a particular field, particularly in the arts such as films, it will be ensured that he or she appeases the Brahman led Sanathanist agenda by various means, and these various means are as follows: It will be ensured that the successful artist appeases Sanathanist Brahman cultural agenda (like the way Ilaiya Raaja did), if that does not happen it will be ensured or suitably desired or expected that the talented individual gets (or seen as) married to a Brahman / Sanathanist (like way it happend to M.S. Subba Lakshmi, Shah Rukh Khan, Aamir Khan and many other non-Sanathanist stars of today or yesteryears) so that they will not take an anti-Sanathanist stand politically or artistically, and even if that does not happen it will be ensured that the individual’s talent and star status does not serve the Indian Dravidian people by ensuring the artist’s corruption with alcohol, drugs and self-destructive behaviour, and even if this does not happen the individual’s career will be destroyed by other methods such as income tax raids, false accusations, criminal cases etc., (as it happened to several individuals such as M. K. Thiyagaraja Bhagavathar and N.S. Krishnan, or like the way it is happening to Sanjay Dutt and Salman Khan).
Hence it is not easy to be a non-Sanathanist artist in the visual media unless one appeases the Sanathanist Brahman agenda.
No talented individuals from a non-Sanathanist background in the arts survived such a sinister onsalught by the Sanathanist racist agenda and sustained a sense of independence to serve the interests of their peoples by refusing to appease Sanathanist Brahmanism through the aforesaid methods. The only person who refused to appease Sanathanist Brahmanism and still managed to survive could be Tamil actor Sathya Raaj, and that was because of his wealthy feudal background and a keen acumen for his commercial interests.
Even artist M.F. Hussain could not escape this onslaught and he is now living a self-imposed exile.
Hence it was ensured that no artist from the visual media or indeed the arts represented the socio-political and material interests of the Indian Dravidian peoples as an artistic icon. Even MGR was unable to overcome this agenda because he corrupted the Dravidian self-respect ideology at the behest of Brahmans and split the DMK party.
So if a talented individual is not seen to appease the Sanathanist Brahman agenda in the visual media in the various ways as described above, he or she will not be allowed to succeed or sustain their success.
Media professionals, (particularly in films) will be spared the various aforesaid methods of "co-option to Sanathanist agenda" if they voluntarily abide by the Sanathanist agenda in their political or apolitical activity, as most actors, performers and film-makers in India indeed do!
14 September 2007


13 September 2007




11 September 2007

I was perturbed and shocked to read news reports in the internet that Ms. Sneha fainted during a shooting of a Telegu film in Ongole a day ago because of her hectic shooting schedule. As a physician I can say that it may be due to the fatigue of working long hours and hypoglycaemia (lack of sugar in the blood due to improper intake of food and long working hours without proper food)! I wish she looks after her health in the interest of millions of her well-wishers, admirers and fans world-wide, and takes regular food, or at least a chocolate bar and fruit juice periodically to get her blood glucose going if she is working long hours and schedules! And she should also take multi-vitamins and iron tablets every day for replenished nourishment!
May be she should take a break and take rest!
I request directors to give her adequate rest and not to over-work her while shooting, and kindly ensure that she eats!
07 September 2007

I am reducing the frequency of all blogging vastly until I complete my film which has to be ready for screening by the end of December (as I averred), which itself is a major creative and material challenge that I have imposed on myself for obvious reasons. Until I complete the film I regret the paucity in blogging.
I need to seriously focus and complete the film by the end of December. And I also need to balance the film-making and media projects I have planned with allocation of time for re-igniting my focus on the medical profession and academic opportunities after a period of higher academic training I completed.
This does not mean that I will not blog here and there. And it also does not mean that I will not change my decision and blog profusely due to some issue that has angered me!
I wanted to write an objective review of the film "Pallikoodam", but I may not do so now. I am in no mood to write but to actualise. And I will wait till I see a good copy of the film since I saw bits and pieces of scenes from a badly pirated version. But briefly, I have to say that the performances of Shriya, Sneha and Thangar Bachaan stands out from the few scenes I saw. I can make a wholesome comment on other actors in the film only after I see an original DVD version.
Shriya's innate and excellent dramatic skills comes out to the fore in the shocking scene where she is humiliated by bigoted villagers. It is a shame that Shriya is not getting more challenging parts to play in mainstream cinema.The caste prejudice of the feudal mindset amongst villagers is well brought out in the film. Sneha gives a controlled, mature, calm and confident performance of the acting veteran that she has already become! I appreciate the fact that the film-maker's heart is in the right place and his concern for the appalling state of primary education in India has to be sincerely commended and praised. Thangar's acting skills comes out as a natural since he plays a character he can relate to very well, since the film is based on his novel. But I reserve my analytical comments on the narrative style of the film which does not break away from the time-tested cinematic narrative practiced by Indian film-makers, but still the film has to be welcomed for its message.
To make a long story short, there was (and is) no investment in universal and standardised primary and secondary education in India because the governance of India was high-jacked by those (Sanathanists) who believed that literacy should be their exclusive preserve and prescribed the "pouring of the molten lead into the ears of those lowly born (Shudras and Panchamas) who dared to even hear the recital of the written word", according to Manusmiruthi which forms the core of the constitutionally sanctified Hindu Law in India. Thus illiteracy was enforced on the Indian Dravidians by the Sanathanists for centuries, and Sanathanists wanted to preserve the "caste based professions" that was used to divide and rule the Indian Dravidians and make the latter accept the aforesaid division and negation of their independent religious identities by the blanket imposition of the "Hindu" label on both the Sanathanist racio-exclusivist apartheid class and the Indian Dravidians divided and ruled by the latter. Thus Sanathanists had no qualms as long as Indian Dravidians were divided and exploited with their caste descent based professions, even if the latter managed to indulge in some kind of feudal land ownership and trade that made a few of them wealthy, as long as literacy and the resultant positions of governance and intellectual leadership was the monopoly of the Sanathanist class and of the Brahmans in particluar by way of the banning of literacy on Indian Dravidians (including the landed classes amongst the latter), based on the dictums of Manu that poured molten lead into the ears of the Indian Dravidians (Shudras and Panchamas) who dared to hear the recital of the written word.
That is why Sanathanists were against investing heavily in whole sale primary and secondary education in India, because as long as Indian Dravidians were imprisoned in illiteracy and caste based menial professions and divisions, while being deluded into accepting the latter and the monopoly enjoyed by Sanathanists as the literate intellectual, judicial, bureaucratic, military, media and high-artistic ruling class of India, (by way of the Hindu label that is ludicrously imposed on both the Indian Dravidian masses thus divided and ruled, and also on the Sanathanist racio-exclusivist religionists), thus fooling the Indian Dravidians into accepting their division by cheating them into falsely believing that they share a religion with the Sanathanists when the reality is that Indian Dravidians (Shudras and Panchamas) have no elementary right to the sacramental and scriptural membership of Sanskritic Sanathanism - the racio-exclusivist religion of the Sanathanists that is codified in Hindu law.
I have also post-poned the blogging of an article that was published in a London journal for various reasons that can be explained later, but the article will be blogged later, but only after the published version is out and in circulation. There are many people and forces who dont like me because of my views on socio-political issues or simply out of prejudice of various varieties (such as caste bigotry, racism or Sanathanist Brahmanical supremacy), and who have simply scuttled my forays into various creative, academic and professional fields in the past out of their prejudice, (and also tried to sabotage my happiness in my personal life) due to their envy based on Sanathanist Brahmanical supremacy or plain caste prejudice. Hence I will not reveal details of my work in the British media until I fully succeed.
Right now, I want to focus only on the film, if I dont want to cut a sorry figure in December as a film-maker and as a romantic man in love.
I want to give myself a break from all socio-political ranting and raving (even in the form of film reviewing) until I succeed in attaining personal success as a man in projects that are important to me as a person, which is what is important to me right now.


(With thanks to Wikipedia)
- Filming must be done on location. Props and sets must not be brought in (if a particular prop is necessary for the story, a location must be chosen where this prop is to be found).
- The sound must never be produced apart from the images or vice versa. (Music must not be used unless it occurs within the scene being filmed, i.e., diegetic).
- The camera must be a hand-held camera. Any movement or immobility attainable in the hand is permitted. (The film must not take place where the camera is standing; filming must take place where the action takes place.)
- The film must be in colour. Special lighting is not acceptable. (If there is too little light for exposure the scene must be cut or a single lamp be attached to the camera).
- Optical work and filters are forbidden.
- The film must not contain superficial action. (Murders, weapons, etc. must not occur.)
- Temporal and geographical alienation are forbidden. (That is to say that the film takes place here and now.)
Genre movies are not acceptable. - The final picture must be transferred to the Academy 35mm film, with an aspect ratio of 4:3, that is, not widescreen. (Originally, the requirement was that the film had to be filmed on Academy 35mm film, but the rule was relaxed to allow low-budget productions.)



05 September 2007
The guys at “The Hindu” should have the decency to acknowledge my blog or even high-light it, if they want to give credit where it is due for their “intellectual inspiration”.
The same thing happened when Lal Kishan Advani suggested that he wanted a law in India along the lines of the Hyde Act to safeguard India’s interests vis-a-vis the Indo-US Nuclear Act, something I advocated in this blog. He should have credited this idea to a blog written by a guy called Iniyan Elanko (alias R.S.Sridhar).
I request those who derive “inspiration” from this blog to acknowledge the credit, and otherwise they are guilty of plagiarising my ideas and thoughts.
Speaking of plagiarism, I am yet to allocate time to sue the film producer who plagiarised my screen story for a television film in Britain because I did not have time to do research to find out the name of the film and date and time on which it was telecast. May be I should do it this year and serve the guy a notice.
03 September 2007

I am not ashamed to make myself an utterly idiotic and a complete fool for love, in front of the whole world, as some real men do. After all what is life without bold expression of smouldering passion and romantic creativity?
How will I win the love of Sneha? She doesn’t even know me, she hasn’t met me, she hasn’t spoken to me, I am not even sure whether she reads this blog, and even if she reads it she may (just) think of me as some kind of a wierdo (just as some other judgmental and narrow minded people), and if I call her she may probably hang up, hence, even before I invite her for making a film, she may even get engaged to some Telegu speaking Brahman actor or anybody else from any other background or profession, and I may never even get a chance to meet her!! What can I do to enable her to give myself a fair chance!?
My intention is not to compel or embarass any woman to love me or marry me or partner me in life against her wishes, including Sneha, but just let her know how much she means to me and how much I am inspired by her so that she can make her own decision and give herself a chance to know me and give me a chance to know her and love her! But what should I do?
Hence I have decided to make a film about Sneha without Sneha – a fictional drama and thriller – in which Sneha will not be acting at all, but will be a character in the film, by which I mean that her name and image will be a character in the film but she will appear only as a picture (or referred to in third person abstractly) but she will never appear in the film (but she may appear only as a brief cameo in the climax, if she agrees)! And I will be starting shooting in a couple of weeks if I have to send her a copy of the film by new year! If she is impressed she can play the cameo in the climax and give me a chance to play a role in her life and if not, I would have atleast made a film with Sneha as the motivation and send it to all the film festivals! Who knows, the film may become a cult hit in India and abroad! Even the guys at Sundance and Cannes may like it!
I am not going to give away the story of the film but it will be a Hollywood style brooding psychological thriller in Tamil and English, and will be shot in the format proposed by Danish film-maker and my cinematic hero Lors Von Trier! The film will run for 90 minutes and it may well become a cult hit even in India and enshrine me in the annals of history as the first guy who made a film as an act of propositioning love!!!!
The clock starts now! I hope Sneha doesn’t get engaged to anybody before December!!!!
And I will certainly dedicate the film to Sneha, the queen of smiles, with love!
This will be my labour of love for her, irrespective of whom she chooses to partner in life! But all I want is a fair chance to meet her and get to know her! Then it is up to her even if she spurns me, and I wish good luck and all happiness to her, irrespective of whom she partners in life!
I will also publish the written version of the film as a novel and it will be called “Finding Sneha”. I have started writing it already. Who knows, the guys at Booker may like it!
Ofcourse the dramatic content of the film and novel will be pure fiction.
After all, Sneha has become the inspiration for me to get out of my creative slumber and absolute procrastination!
Karat and Yechury of CPI (M)

Corrected Version 1
I was never really married in the real sense.
The truth is that I may have given the wrong impression to readers that I was conventionally married twice. The truth is that I had two brief relationships, and the first one (the Gounder girl’s) was not solemnized as an open and conventional marriage, but since I perceive all life partnerships based on mutual consent from a Periyarist perspective as being marital, based on “self-respect”, I characterized it as a marriage from my own moral perspective. But from a conventional sense it was not a publicly held marriage. Even my second relationship was a brief relationship, which accidentally got solemnized as a public wedding due to some extraneous circumstances (such as the illness of my Aunty), otherwise it would have remained as a brief relationship. Both the women who had a relationship with me made no effort to know or see the real me, particularly my creative and intellectual side (and I don’t blame them since even my parents could not see it!) But my ex-spouses were dishonest, malicious and vexatious in my opinion, and hence, I was the victim. But in fairness to them my life circumstances may have also prevented them from seeing the real me, even though that does not excuse their malice. The only publicly held marriage with the Udayar woman in the second relationship ended in a divorce after a very brief marriage while I was busy defending myself against the malicious prosecution based on “conspiracy to give medicine” and running from pillar to post in various courts of law.
Hence one can say that I was never really married in the real sense.































































































